Just asking (3): what was on his mind?

Moses Keeping Jethro's Sheep (Dalziels' Bible Gallery)( Camden Press, CC0, via Wikimedia Commons)

I’m just asking.
Been wanted to all this time.

What were they thinking in those silent years?

Moses: forty years under father in law.
Moses again: after he knew he couldn’t enter the promised land till his death.
Jacob: all those years after he turned lame.
Joseph: years of imprisonment.

People say: what about David after Beersheba? Paul to Damascus? And Simon Peter after the cock crow?
Well, David, Peter and Paul are of course well known failures. But at least there are glimpses into their struggles, from Psalms, John 21, and epistles. At least peeks are there.

But Jacob, Joseph, and certainly Moses?
Boy, they swallowed every sigh!
Jacob and Joseph had somewhat a consolation towards the end.

But Moses?
Let’s focus on him.
Moses never saw the end.

What were going through his mind all those years?
Certainly regrets; after all he committed murder and failed to honor Yahweh before the Israelites.

 “What could have been” must have made residence in his psyche.

And shame?
Didn’t it matter to eat off the hand of father in law?
What about the gigantic sense of failure in front of millions of Israelites who saw him as their leader, to be rebuked by the LORD?

Why was the Bible so silent abut his internal turmoils and how he carried them in his 80 years?
Is it that the Bible is never interested in human mental struggles, nor their ways of dealing with them?
Just interested in triumph with faith?

Why isn’t a single syllable from Moses about those silent years.
I don’t know.

Just asking.